habits

the long anticiated winter break is coming to its end. and over this winter break has become the most intersting and most eventful break of them all. yet more than anything it has beenconnfising for me... making decisions that should be made with confidence and made with out any hesitation...

for theses decisions i made i did make with out hesitation but not enough confidence and now i have been drowning myself with thoughts and reassurance that i have made the right choice and i am making the right decision... since old habits die hard and you never forget your first love

love is the one thing in the wold we all strives for, but after we get a taste of it, nothing is ever the same. why is it we can never break that thing that made us want to live for anything but only die for one. then the crazy notion of being able to love again is a shot in the dark. but is it only a shot in the dark because we cannot let go of the first love and its habits. to let a new love and new habits form.

am i settling for is it a new experience ... is the past the past or am i supposed to make that past my present and future


this winter break i fell for some one new ... but am being dragged and held back by the old